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“If a child were to be brought up isolated and only spoken to in a gibberish tongue; then this would result in him speaking fluently nothing at all. When immersed into the real world, to him, everyone would still be speaking gibberish. He would never notice a major problem with himself because yes he would have learned in his life-- but he would have learned only to be a babbling fool. Society as a whole is just that, a babbling fool. Society is intellectually retarded by bigotry, isolation, and a pompous error of opinion against facts resulting in an absence of truth… but no one will ever realize that." ~AVU
It’s easy to see that a real love exists when after all the years past— when I had become so worn and cynical that all forms of romance from the starry eyed child had nearly all faded; But over 5 years ago I met a girl who lifted me to a perspective where I saw that I truly could love without restraint, make romantic gestures to, and yet not romanticize our love but rather to achieve something real/pure. In that time I grew into a better person than I had ever been before. To meet another person for both of us to love in such a way would have been ridiculous to consider at the time. “Meant to be” had never been a thought intended for more than two people beforehand… After all, at one point to even find someone like Taryn seemed to be just a foolish fantasy. Then we found her anyway. It seems like all expectations should be dropped on what can happen in regards to love. It had already surpassed my expectations once and it keeps following suit in that manner. I’m not afraid of what we are becoming, no matter it’s pace, because it feels right, natural and pure. Such a thing should truly be emphasized: For all of the stigma and labeled “taboos” associated with being poly, when done honestly and with good intentions, it really is such a pure and exposed form of love. I would let the whole world resent me for it with no guilt felt on my part— I am in love with two amazing women.
So I have fallen fast but I’ve fallen fast into love with two who make me a better person (just simply by knowing that they exist). I have fallen for two women who somehow make me feel understood and at the same time humbled. I feel so much stronger and yet when I’m by either of them I’m so weak. I’m so exposed that they could destroy me on a moments whim— I’m stronger because I know that they would never do such a thing. I’m stronger because I present them with every side of myself strong & weak, and they somehow just love me more and more— And I them as we all continue to grow separately & together.
Know that I love and respect you both more intensely than what should be considered reasonable. I will always support you both as you are and for who you are… Even if/when that “as you are” may be against me and believe me, I can be stubborn— so that will be a challenge from time to time. I always want you two to be yourselves no matter the conditions because that’s who I love: unfiltered and honest to self character. Don’t either of you ever compromise who you are at the core for me or anyone. Any change you make should spout from self growth and love, but never from fear or pain.
∞∞∞
Schnapps schnapps schnapps. Peachity peachy schnapps.
Pasting on a plastic smile and that turns to a visible cringe.
As this guy talks to me, I’ll let you know that I’m TRYING to be friendly, but keep in your head that it’s all fake.
People who think that there is such a thing as a “British” accent should have their ears ripped from their heads because they don’t deserve them.
There is such thing as a British accent though… That’s an over-simplified statement but… The UK consciously changed their accent to give a sound of higher stature/education. Before that they would always follow “Kings/Queens English” which was however the ruling power pronounced words was deemed the correct way. So the accent changed with each generation as a symbol of how much power the monarchy had. In fact the GenAm accent is much closer to the Elizabethan-Era accent than the UK’s accent today. Many even argue that Shakespeare sounds much better when read in GenAm… You know, Instead of pretending like he had the non-rhotic accent that the UK speaks with today.
Sometimes… Thinking of you both for long enough while missing you evolves into feeling you here by my side. I think that I can feel at home no matter where I am and regardless of how far you are from me. Simply because I know I’m loved… But then I hear your voices or see your faces and the yearning to hold you both again just hits me even harder.
∞∞∞
Girlfriend is moving in…
You have a lot of clothes and books.
AHHHHHHHHHHH
:P
There will always be room for her awesome’ness though.
I’m not afraid of being here
So much the same
It makes me helpless alone
There is no way to quickly summarize how much I love the two of these women. I’d write a full length novel and by the time that I’d finish it there’d be another ready to work on.
Don’t you feed me lies about some idealistic future. (My) heart won’t heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures.
Be still my heart. This could be a brand new start with you— And it will be clear if we wake up and you’re still here with us. ;)
